I’ve been thinking recently as I do, about why I first started blogging. I was at a stage in my mental health where I was determined not to be ashamed of my mental health “problems”, to help keep me in the habit of writing and use it to help my mental process, as in love forward with the progress in my thought patterns and unravel what my mind has to tell me about myself.
Up until the beginning of 2013 I’d only ever really written poetically and I wanted to move out into enjoying the proces if writing in other formats. Most importantly after speaking to others in my situation get my story out there, maybe even hopefully provide some insight to others as to the path of this whole recovery process as well as myself.
I thought about how I’ve wavered from my original reasons, which is all well and good, I just realised I carried on for the wrong reasons for myself.
I remember having conversation after conversation with myself and my partner at the time about how no one would be interested in my story so I simplified the reasons to do it simply for myself and my recovery. I mean you have to do it for yourself to some extent otherwise you just end up deterring from your own path into other people’s. A lesson I have learned time and again and one I’m sure I will learn again.
I named this blog Twiistd progress as it’s primarily documenting my progress through writing and the process of therapy and all that jazz.
I actually started a separate blog for my mental health entries, although I stopped using that before I decided to cease writing in this towards the end of last year.
Now I’m combining the lot, and I’m going back to basics, which is something I do when ever I lose my way. Not heading back to the start but clearing through all the bullshit to focus on the fundamentals of whatever it is I’m doing at the time.
Now? Now I’m feeling much more relaxed about my writing. I spent a few months just writing in my journal type thing which holds all my poetry and thoughts and plans. Now, I am ready to bring these back to this platform.
If it doesn’t make it to people’s eyes so be it, it really is a type of external hard drive drive for my overly cluttered mind. And if it helps, entertains, amuses or draws people in along the way, great. It’s just I have other writing on the go behind the scenes with a more defined intention for these purposes. For now, this is merely my point of view, Twiistd or otherwise.
If you’re along for the ride welcome and a massive thank you.
If not, see you on the other side.
Twiistd Progress 